Homeless to Harvard 风雨哈佛路

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[monologue] Couldn't they see? Anyone could see. She was in so much pain. There were struggles so much on the surface so there if anyone cared to look It wasn't like she was running off from being a good mother to somebody else... She just didn't have any more to give.

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[旁白] 她承受不了生活的压力 但我怎么能让她就这样死去呢 难道死不是每个人最难做到的事情吗？

[monologue] She couldn't take living straight. Why should I expect her to take dying. Isn't dying the hardest thing anyone's ever done?

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[monologue] Do any of us bargain for our lives? It seems to me that we just fall into them. And we have to do the best we can. Let's go. My mother was dying. My father was gone. But I had to believe there were roads would rise up to meet me. I was 15 when I went out to the world. What's a home anyway. A roof? A bed? A place where when you go there they have to take you. If so, when I was 15, I became homeless. But some times I felt like I never had a home in my life. And another times I knew where ever my mom was, that's where my home was.

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People die. Things decay. Everything that seemed so solid is meaningless. All that left is gestures we make. Gestures and air. That’s what we remember. I remember riding with my mother through the slips. The year ending. but her arms were warm around me when I was little and she was well. That was long ago. maybe it only happened once. Maybe she betrayed me a thousand times. it didn't matter. math was always a weak subject. we remember what we choose.

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[question] What is your dream? For your life? For your school.

[monologue] I knew when at that moment I had to make a choice. I could submit to everything that was happening in living life of excuses or I could push myself. I could push myself and make my life good.

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I know I can succeed. I just... I just need the chance. I need the chance to climb out of this place I've been born in. everyone I know just angry, tired. They're trying to survive. but I know that there's a world out there that's better. That's better developed. I wanna live in it.

--why now?

--My mother died of AIDS. she died a couple of months ago. It was real slap on the face. I guess I always thought that she was gonna get better and take care of me. It's pretty stupid huh? she'd never been taking care of me. I took care of her. She was my baby. But now she's gone.

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--I love you dad.

--oh don't do that. don't love me. It wastes of energy.

--You when I was little. you were the most interesting thing in my world. everyone around was just talking about drugs or sex or you know, just trying to survive the day. but you always had ideas，it's because of you I know there's another way of being.

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welcome to Harvard guys.

--it looks like what you thought it would?

--better. unattainably better

--Liz, they're just people.

--not people like me

[monologue] why not people like me ? What made them so different? because of where they were born? I was working as hard as I could, so I didn't end up on food stamps or house let. What... what if I work even more? I was so close to the skin now I can touch it. It would be a reach. It’s not impossible.

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[monologue] I want to stand beside people beside walk and not be so far beneath them

I wanna go to Harvard and become very developed read all the best books then I found myself thinking what if I just go crazy? I used my every potential to do that. I have to do it. I have no choice.

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[monologue] the world moves you just suspect it could no happen without you situations are not condused to what you want for yourself someone else's needs, someone else's plate is going to be stronger than yours is. I think people just get frustrated without harsh, life can be so they're spending their time dwelling on that frustration we calling it anger. keep their eyes shut to the wholeness of the situation to all those tinny things that have come together to make it, what it is

because I was turned so inward by mom and dad I got chance to see how all the little tiny things come together to make the final product so I was never inclined to wonder why this or why that I knew why not that I was happy about it, in fact I was really sad about it, some of the time but I was very excepting I was very excepting. I just always knew that I need to get out.

--is there anything else you'd like to tell us?

--I loved my mother. so much I mean she was a drug addict. she was an alcoholic she was legally blind she was schizophrenic but I never forgot that she did love me

even if, if she did it. all the time, all the time

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--Liz Liz, how did you do this?

--How could I not do it?! my parents showed me with the alternative was

--did you ever feel sorry for yourself?

--sorry?

--sleeping in the subway. eating out of dumpsters

--that had always been my life and I really I feel that I got lucky, because any sensive security was pulled out from under me so I was forced to look forward. I had to... there was no going back. and I reached a point where I just thought "oh I'm gonna work as hard as I possiblly can and see what happens" and now I'm going to college. and the NYT is going to pay

--so you were lucky! but is there anything you change, if you were able?

--Yeah, I'd give it back. all of it. If I could have my family back.

Homeless to Harvard 风雨哈佛路